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My price... ut oh

Sun, 22 Mar 2009 22:42:52 GMT

This is fun to do. Just read the 'offence' and if you've done it, you owe that fine.

You don't have to confess your answers, just the amount of your fine.

NOTE fines to be added once, not for how ever many times you have done it.

Smoked weed -- £10

Did acid or pills -- £5

Ever had sex at church -- £25

Woke up in the morning and did not know the person who was next to you -- £40

Had sex with someone on MySpace/Facebook/Bebo etc -- £25

Had sex for money -- £100

Ever had sex with a Puerto Rican -- £20

Vandalized something -- £20

Had sex on your parents' bed -- £10

Beat up someone -- £20

Been jumped -- £10

Cross dressed -- £10

Given money to stripper -- £25

Been in love with a stripper -- £20

Kissed someone who's name you didn't know -- £0.10

Hit on some one of the same sex while at work -- £15

Ever drive and drank -- £20

Ever got drunk at work, or went to work while still drunk -- £50

Used toys while having sex -- £30

Got drunk, passed out and don't remember the night before -- £20

Went skinny dipping -- £5

Had sex in a pool -- £20

Kissed someone of the same sex -- £10

Had sex with someone of the same sex -- £20

Cheated on your significant other -- £10

Masturbated -- £10

Cheated on your significant other with their relative or close friend -- £20

Done oral -- £5

Got oral -- £5

Done / got oral in a vehicle while it was moving -- £25

Stole something -- £10

Had sex with someone in jail -- £25

Made a nasty home video or took pictures -- £15

Had a threesome -- £50

Had sex in public -- £20

Been in the same room while someone was having sex --£25

Stole something worth over more than a hundred quid-- £20

Had sex with someone 10 years older -- £20

Had sex with someone under the age accepted by rule of thumb (half your age plus 7) -- £25

Been in love with two people or more at the same time-- £50

Said you love someone but didn't mean it -- £25

Went streaking -- £5

Went streaking in broad daylight -- £15

Been arrested -- £5

Spent time in jail -- £15

Pissed in the pool -- £0.50

Played spin the bottle -- £5

Done something you regret -- £20

Had sex with your best friend -- £20

Had sex with someone you work with at work -- £25

Had anal sex -- £80

Lied to your mate -- £5

Lied to your mate about the sex being good -- £25

Tally it up and title it: "My Fine Is..." copy and paste, then repost as a new bulletin. Tag the friends whose fine you want to see!!

My fine is £675.60

Ive been naughty.... *does the cute look*

meme's stolen from Jess

Mon, 16 Mar 2009 22:48:40 GMT

Start with 100% and subtract 1% for everything that you've done. Then repost as " __% innocent"

01. Smoked
02. Drank alcohol
03. Cried when someone died.
04. Been drunk.
05. Had sex.
06. Been to a concert.
07. Gotten/given a hand job.
08. Been verbally/sexually harassed.
09. Verbally/sexually harassed somebody.
11. Felt someone up and/or been felt up.
12. Laughed so hard something came out of your nose .
13. Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before.
14. Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend.
15. Been to prom.
16. Cried at school.
17. Gotten lost in a Wal-Mart or a department store.
18. Went streaking.
19. Given or received a lap dance.
20. Had someone of the opposite sex in your room.
21. Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over.
22. Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house.
23. Kissed a stranger.
24. Hugged a stranger.
25. Went scuba diving.
26. Driven a car.
27. Gotten an x-ray.
28. Hit by a car.
29. Had a party.
30. Done drugs.
31. Played strip poker/darts/pool.
32. Got paid to strip for someone.
33. Run away from home.
34. Broken a bone.
35. Eaten sushi.
36. Bought porn.
37. Watched porn.
38. Made porn.
39. Made beans.
40. Been in love.
41. French kissed.
42. Laughed so hard you cried.
43. Cried yourself to sleep.
44. Laughed yourself to sleep.
45. Stabbed yourself.
46. Shot a gun.
47. Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day.
48. Been online for 9 consecutive hours.
49. Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours.
50. Watched an animal die.
51. Watched a person die.
52. Kissed somewhere with at least 1 person present.
53. Pranked somebody.
54. Put somebody in the hospital.
55. Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out.
56. Made spicy beans.
57. Dressed punk.
58. Dressed Goth.
59. Dressed preppy .
60. Been to a motocross race.
61. Avoided somebody.
62. Been stalked.
63. Stalked someone.
64. Met a celebrity.
65. Played an instrument.
66. Ridden a horse.
67. Cut yourself.
68. Bungee jumped.
69. Ding dong ditched somebody.
70. Been to a wild party.
71. Been caught stealing something.
72. Kicked/punched a guy in the balls.
73. Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend.
74. Gone out with your friend's crush.
75. Got arrested.
76. Been pregnant.
77. Babysat.
78. Been to another country.
79. Started your house on fire.
80. Had an encounter with a ghost.
81. Donated your hair to cancer patients.
82. Been asked out by someone that you never thought you'd be asked out by.
83. Cried over a member of the opposite sex.
84. Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for over 2 months.
85. Sat on your butt all day.
86. Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself.
87. Had a job.
88. Gotten cut from a sports team.
89. Been called a whore.
90. Danced like a whore .
91. Been mistaken for a celebrity.
92. Been in a car accident.
93. Been told you have beautiful eyes.
94. Been told you have beautiful hair.
95. Raped somebody.
96. Danced in the rain.
97. Been rejected
98. Left a restaurant without paying.
99. Punched someone/slapped someone in the face.
100. Been raped.

PERCENTAGE : 43%
Your Autobiography

Part 1: The Birth of You
Were you a planned baby? No
Were you the first?: No ,I have 3 older brothers "2 half my dads side" a younger sister and a younger brother
Who was present at your birth?: Dont know
Were your parents married when you were born? Yes.
What is your birthdate? June 5th 1986

Part 2: The Family
How would you describe your family?: Not talkative and keep to them selfs, oh and Religious. *my mum and dad*
Are your parents married?: Yes
Siblings or an only child?: 3 older brothers "2 half my dads side" a younger sister and a younger brother
If you have siblings are you oldest, middle, or youngest? Middle child
What are your siblings names and ages?: Alex, Matt, Ian, Misty, Jacob
Which parent do you get along with best? None, I dont talk to them and they dont talk to me.... Just the way I like it.

Part 3: The Friends
Do you have more than one best friend?: No.
Who are your best friends? No best friends there all just good mates.
What do you like to do when you are together? Go to the pub, Talk, Watch a film sometimes.
Do you share the same interests?: Some.
Which friend can you tell anything to? Tony and Mike, they both listhen to me ramble about how crap my life is :P

Part 4: Your Personality
How high/low is your self esteem? It’s low... Rather low I dont like myself too much.
Are you an extrovert or an introvert? I guess if I had to be classed as one of them I would be an Introvert... I do think quite alot.
Do you live life to the fullest? No.

Part 5: Appearance
Are you comforable with the way you look?: sometimes but mainly no.
Do you have any piercings besides your ears? No
Describe your hair. Long and black with my roots showing.
What make-up do you wear? Occasionally black nail varnish.
How do you dress? Black cloths... If its not black I dont wanna know. :P

Part 6: The Past
Were you a strange child?: Yes.
What did you use to love that you no longer do? Building hideholes behind the shed.
Do you have the same friends?: No.
Was there anything in your past that was traumatizing? Er um. Yes more then one occasion.

Part 7: The Future
What is your ambition? To become a scientist and live in either Japan, Germany or a very very cold country like the North pole.
Are you scared of growing old?: No.
Do you want to get married? Depends really.

Part 8: The Outdoors
Do you prefer indoors or outdoors? Outdoors when there is snow, Thunderstorms, and not to hot.
What is your favorite season: Winter.
Do you like walking in the rain?: Yes sometimes.

Part 9: Food
Are you a vegetarian?: No.
What is your favorite fruit? Apple.
What food makes you want to gag? Tomatos and mushrooms.
What is your favorite dessert? Rhubarb crumble.
What is your favorite restaurant? Don’t have one.
Are you a fussy eater?: no.

Part 10: Relationships and Love
Are you single or taken?: Oh so very single.
If taken who is the lucky guy/girl?
Do you think love is the best feeling in the world?: Yes when it is also received not just given.
Do you believe in love at first sight? No.

Part 11: Experiences
What was one of your greatest experiences? Coming back after a combichrist Gig and having a bath.
What was one of your worst? Being bullied.
Have you ever done drugs? No.
Have you ever thought you were going to die?: Yes a few times.
Have you ever suffered from depression? Yep and still do.

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1. Aaron needs to learn how to count.
2. Aaron looks back on Supermodel.
3. Aaron says Bonds should keep home run record.
4. Aaron Wants to Move to Mueller
5. Aaron does the Gecko Shot Video
6. Aaron hates this president d-bag for interrupting my primetime tv ...
7. Aaron Asks : clusterflock
8. Aaron likes to hump trees
9. Aaron eats whiskas and jolt cola full video
10. Aaron wears ladies deodorent
11. Aaron was arrested for murder in the first degree and tampering with evidence
12. Aaron Loves Angela - Movie (1975)

WEll that killed a bit more time :P

The roof the roof the roof is on FIRE!!!!

Thu, 12 Mar 2009 15:59:55 GMT

I shall be having my own place very soon *get in there my son* its made me rather happy I can tell you. Getting out of my parents house and into "my own" you could say. There are quite a few strings attached to this but nothing to major to stop me from moving but lets hope it works better then all my previus attempts at it.
It will still be in bristol and I hope near glocester road but it could be Easten, St wurboughs or bedminster or some where else I dont know yet its for me to choose in the interveiws! on tuesday. Yea I say interveiws I had two companys get in contact with me and now Ive got two interveiws with two differnt companys on the say day... luckyly not at the same time.. one in the morning the other in the afternoon.
wish me luck im gunna need it.

Oh ill be going to the keller on friday, It would be great to see people there :)

The Giant hampster of doom riding his hampster wheel of massocism.

Matters of the Mind!

Fri, 06 Mar 2009 22:29:19 GMT

Its all about standing back and taking a good hard look at whats been going on in one's life really. And from what i can see is that Ive been going through quite a bit even if I dont admit it Especiialy going through alot in my head. But there is one thing that plagues my mind almost every day and that is one thing... Love.
Its one of those human emotions that one feels towards some one or something.
Im glad to say Ive been in love twice in my whole life Once to a woman Named Mia... or as my friends used to call her Mail order....The other is a woman who to me is unique in every way and you could even go as far as to look upto... *yes she is taller then me* but in other ways too. This person Is Rose and well to be fair we have been out twice if I can remember rightly.....And all due to differnt circumstances things changed.
Rose is in Uni and it sounds like she is really liking it but not the place she is living, at the moment but come the next term she is moving out of halls I beleave this to be a very good thing for her.

And I know standing back and watching from afar on what you had and what you might have in the future is a great skill and it seems that I am begining to gain it as it seems. I know Ive told many people that I would not do any long distance relationship but from looking back at are relationship it seemed to do it a world of good." the days we spent apart and then the days we saw each other again"

Now im taking a step back and asking my self all the questions that need asking but one thing keeps popping into my mind "love" which in, well all cases should over ride any form of rationallity. But for the sake of Rose I have to be rational, so the whole of the night is going to be about one thing. What is best for her.....

Now this is what I would love to happen.. Id love for us to get back together and have a long distance relationship and visit each other on holidays and stuff "I have money now so I could do that" And Id love for her to finish UNI with the best that she can muster.
I know this is kinda cheesy but hey I dont care, I want to be there for her when she needs some one that she can talk too.

We met for the first time since are little "meeting" back when.. "i honestly cant remember the date" and we where both at are real lows and me especially when i was on tablets that where doing buggery with my brain and other functions of my body....making me Damned Irritated and anoyed very easyly.
But now that my brain is back I can think freely and not get irritated or anoyed.
Ok ill shut up but first ill say it all in lamens terms.
I love Rose I want to be with her but will she let me be with her? Even if it is a long distance relationship. I honest to god have no worrys or any thing about that or even waiting.
But If she says no to it. I guess there isnt really any thing I can do apart from sit at the side lines and just be a friend which would pain me greatly.

any ways anoth ramblings from a mad man.

Oh an Update on my living..... Im not getting paid for being insane... and soon I shall be getting an apartment some where... Some time soon I damn well hope.

pieace all.

Baboon Bananazaa

Wed, 14 Jan 2009 10:01:55 GMT

Well Ive just got another letter through from the government and there giving me more money :) which is good. It allows me tog et out of the house now.. just have to wait for it to come through then I can finnaly be frieldny with all my friends buy them stuff instead of buying me stuff for taht past 2-3 years which tehy have :) I thank you all for that and i shall show you how greatfull I am to you :) Pub This friday :) come and be very very merry :D

Things going on.

Wed, 07 Jan 2009 19:44:23 GMT

Well it has been a while since i last updated... I say a while its been more like a couple of months :P And i honestly dont know what to do any more. My head is how should i say this..... Not sunny side up :P and getting more and more burnt as it lays on the frying pan.... ok if your not that smart anoth to realise what i mean via that.... im on new pills *again* which seem to be helping sligtly but not anoth. im still haveing this attack panicy things that i have no idea what they really are. i keep seeing weird crap as well like a little girl with grey hair and a black cat... beleave you me that is freaking scary..... i know its not real because it keeps following me around like a freaking horror story..... and people wonder why i dont go out and be social.....

sorry didnt mean to be harsh back then ive just had a hard day.....

Xmas wasnt great, new year i slept through, most of the time im either on WOW or freaking out somewhere trying to get help from physcs and stuff but its taking its sweet ass time..... atleast im starting to get some money through.

And yes I am addicted to wow......

ok im finished for now time to turn around talk to rose while we are in devon..... see you all when i get back. *hugs*

I am not a nutcase honest Guv.

crap

Thu, 27 Nov 2008 03:31:39 GMT

A. Each tagged person must post 8 things about themselves on their journal.
B. At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people.

1. I am 22 years old.

2. I do 1 day a week at college now taking chemistry and physics if I can feel up to it.

3. I do little outside of home or college no work.

4. I cant really say im feeling really well at the moment.

5. I think im dead sexy... well acutly the exact opposite.

6. Im on my computer all day every day... can almost always find me on msn.

7. I want to get out of bristol as soon as possible its driving me insane.

8. I cant sleep... constantly i find it very hard to fall asleep unless i stay awake for 2 days straight.

doobies doobies dooo.

Wed, 12 Nov 2008 02:01:49 GMT

Well here i am once again typing away on LJ....
Not much has changed apart from the fact that the docters now think that tehre is nothing wrong with my kidneys.....
bit confusing and the evidance doenst match.... but hey cant win them all...
gunna try and find a job now as i just have no money what so ever and am running even further into dept with friends and family.... stupid jobs..... god damn it.... somtimes I really hate being on this planet....

any ways its 2 am and im typing into LJ... gunna go and grab some sleep now..... see if i cant change the current trend im setting of just lying there in bed waiting to fall asleep and not actuly getting any....

any ways catch you in a bits..
AT out

Song that I love.

Mon, 20 Oct 2008 14:33:34 GMT

I am a bitch how do you want me? from behind, or on my knees.
I am a slut please hold me now, Ill be your noise, this shit will fuck you up.
I am a bitch how do you want me? from behind or on my kness.
I am a slut please hold me now. ill be your noise, this shit will fuck you up.
ah I love that song :P I know some one that will atleast know this by the lyrics :P
Meh am bored and have given up on my biology work I cant do it... Its not sticking in my head unlick physics or chemistry which im mastering very quickly indeed.....
god why cant it be as easy as them two?? :P

Mon, 20 Oct 2008 12:14:57 GMT

well where should I begin its been rather some time so I guess I shouldnt take too much of any ones time.
At college things seem to be going rather smooth..... Apart from Biology which im cramming a hell of alot of revision in today to try adn catch up but it doesnt seem to be doing any good as im not remembering any of it.... for chemistry, its easy as pie really.
For physics well now this is where im goin to be going into some depth I guess, Ive got a project to do on an energy crisis and Ive taken apon my self to do some research into all differnt energy types we could use and the one that stood out the most to me was this

this is Thorium and Ive read a hell of a lot into this as an energy source. It might seem like its just a metal but its actuly radioactive.... I didnt even know that before reading about it.
But the way you use it isnt just to stick it in a nuclear reactor.... No instead you put it in a accelerator-driven system (or ADS) reactor. Basicly what that is is a reactor that fires a stream of protons into the thorium to get it to react otherwise the thorium just sits there like G.I.R going doom doom doom.....etc...
But yea the good thing about this is The waste from it isnt radioactive anoth to do the environment harm... And if a terrorist or some one was to target the reactor to make it go nuclear it couldnt even do that.... if you take away the stream of protons it shuts off no reaction will accure with out the protons.
And another good thing about this is that there are 3 times more Thorium in the earths crust then there is Uranium - 235
Heh sorry for going into so mu depth on this Im just really into this now :P
right on about somethign else now I guess as that probably bored you half to death.
Ive been freaking out about how im failing this course because of one bloody subject "biology" god its doing my tits in Ive got a hell of alot of reading and work to do now and Ive not even done a single thing for it. I guess that's what I get for focusing on 3 things... Chemistry, Physics and Games..... Maybe I should take away my games.... *crys*

Any ways becuase of all this and a few other things my head has been doing over time on me and ive been freaking out all the time not really being able to do any thing and just wanting to lie in bed.
Basicly im becoming depressed horribly again but you all probably go... "whats new"...Meh I just need to write it down.....

But as you know I went to the anime night saterday it was pritty fun. I liked it some of the music was good and I got to meet my old mate Kay.

Any ways im going to shut up now and leave you to read something interesting....
Aaron out.

Sat, 18 Oct 2008 14:28:15 GMT

Bagles..... comment.

Aloha from the otherside of sanity

Thu, 02 Oct 2008 12:11:40 GMT

Well as it seems, its been along time since I updated so ill give it a go.
First off I had a great time that friday i went out to the keller and met shini and wished her a happy birthday. that was a good day. lots of dancing drinking and merry making.
what a hang over though.....
My WoW account has ran out and no money to update it, all I can say is goody, becuase it gives me more time to A) play on the PTR B) do more homework and study and C)... well ok maybe nothing for C as of yet.

Started college and all things seem to be going not to bad I must say, I love physics and Chemistry but I had to miss my first Higher maths lesson becuase Of a doc's appointment.
Home work for Chemistry is done woohooo first for a long time :) now all i got to do is Comms homework (comms is a form of English) And ohhh boy do I HATE!!!! English writing and spelling and any thing about it.

Well coming back from the docters today I got seriusly sad/depressed what ever you wanna call it becuase i got some rather bad news for my self. So Ive been crying and acting all weird all morning.
Any ways I wont go into the details as It might be nothign so far and I could be blowing it out of preportion lets just wait for the docs to get back to me..... I hope.

Well catch you all later.
Mail_man the allmighty and god of root beer.

Start of College

Mon, 15 Sep 2008 22:41:26 GMT

Well today I got to college and got every thing sorted. The Dyslexia help... Done.
Classes... Done. free laptop.... Almost done.
That sums it up really my whole day. done.
Well the lessons I chose where Chemistry... Biology... and last but not least Physics.
Maybe I ahve gone over the top on the physics things maybe not we shall see how it pans out.
Im just happy as I get to take more classes then Im actuly allowed :)

laters all be well.

Donka bonka all is nonsa. nonsense

Fri, 12 Sep 2008 16:47:43 GMT

Todays has been such a surreal day so far. after having put on a stone and a half and then heat spikes all over my body and then going to the docs for some thing tottaly differnt. things seem to be going in a fasion seen by a few people.
Im just hoping things start to get better soon and turns around for college.
Oh yes college starting on monday.
Woohooo

Well hope to see you all out tonight at the keller if I can get the money.
see u all soon. x

Intreaging

Wed, 10 Sep 2008 23:01:03 GMT

Well Id just like to say every one is still alive after they turned on that big machine in france and switzerland. so thats no black holes or any thing that really sucks :P

Still on the drugs me be seem to be making me fat they are. increasing my appitite they be.
why me talking like this me no know. must be me being lazy
gahhh took the dog for a walk this morning for the first time in a long time. mainly because every one was pissing me off in the house and stuff.
when I got home i started to get loads of heat spikes in my body and still have them.... its really starting to piss me off hope they go soon by atleast the morning.

Wandering what every one is doing these days havnt been in touch with some people. Mike,bob and others.
Gah lonely.

oh well talk to u all soon.

Minor update.

Fri, 22 Aug 2008 22:21:43 GMT

Well just a small one.

Now have no job. so you are allowed to call me a jobless Bum again....
Went to the Docs this morning... more info will follow in the coming day/weeks
Starting to revise for college term coming up.... *good I guess*
Is very envius of the friends that are in Japan..... Gief suvaniers plx... :P joking hope you guys have a fun time.
Am very sleepy now due to 2 bottles of very cheap Stella/Becks like substance...
I shouldnt be drinking while on my new tablets... but hey I havent taken one today.
I'm wanting to go to the keller sometime next month. And looking for people to join me.

Also Bleh bed time.

Catch you all soon.

Sun, 17 Aug 2008 23:14:49 GMT

My mind is like a wrecking ball hitting a very big building made of titanium and bouncing off with alot of damage done to the ball *my head* and the wall being life. Ive been to the docs and have been put onto some differnt drugs to "help" but only time will tell weather these drugs will work or not just like the rest.
I always get this impression that im loosing things and people and well just loosing "the game" but thats just because im going bald :( which is deffinatly not good. And If I go bald I will probably loose it and go nuts. So lets hope that doesnt happen.

Ive been with rose for quite some time now and she helped me not to long ago as I had a huge mental break down and she helped me to my feet again per-say. So in return I helped her paint what is to be her room when she comes back from falmouth uni.
And it helped but then we both had a break down at the same time which was rather an awakening as sorts.
These break downs seems to be happening an awfull lot these days and as soon as i figure them out I hope they can piss off back to france or where ever they came from. And Let me keep my Hair damn the hair god if he takes his hair back ill go after him with a pitchfork and onions yes thats right a pitchfork....

Well just chilling at home now not eating but still drinking and not getting anoyed by my little brother as he is down in cornwall for the week *woooohoooo* I hate living at home it is soooooo depressing its unnatural.
Ill up date some other time now catch u all later

Laters beegeees.

Amazing!!!

Fri, 01 Aug 2008 11:36:34 GMT

Ahh Went to CombiChrist last night it was bloody Amazing the two headliners though where of an ok quality so me and steve had a little poll dance again :P

Was there with rose on a leash mwhahaha finnaly got a pet woohoo :P But yea it was an amazing night and the music was brilliant and becuase rose was there it was just the perfect night for my secound gig EVER!!!! thats right im still new to these things and for some reason My energy kept on going and going for like 3 hours non stop dancing.... That never happpens :P

But yea back home now nackerd to hell sat infront of my computer remembering why I hate Chavs and there like so much.... *mumble* Doult I can make it to the keller tonight for mikes Bday "sorry dude" Have no money and Ive even been paid but becuase Ive been off work ill I got almost no money and it all went to my parents and brother for varius things suchs huh....

Well Catch you all later

Aaron the bleeming obvius.

Thu, 24 Jul 2008 20:17:17 GMT

ummmm cake

comment.

Wanders of life.

Tue, 22 Jul 2008 22:28:12 GMT

Bah im still waiting on my student loan comfirmation. been roughly 2 and half weeks now. And If I can get that iLl can get out of my damned parents house.
Ove been very tempted of late for a few reasons, tempted of a few things some good and some really bad. and sOme that would make me unbeliaveable happy If they where accepted But Im very "unknowing" at the moment and my minDs is in a million places at once because of the choices I could make and do not make or do make which is all "life"

Been listhening to a new type of music recently compared to my usual Korn, Slipknot, disturbed... Ive been Listhening to alot of Panzar AG and combi christ and bands like that. Dunno maybe my tastes are changing or Other then just expanding....

Ive got yet another 2 weeks off work "woow" but thats also bad news I guess as no one seems to want to "hang" with me. every one is busy with there lifes and have no time for a poor Mail Man. I ring people and all they say now is "see you on friday as im busy till then" Kinda makes me sad when I hear that but I respect that people have other lives and cant hang out all the time.

I just want to really know whats happening at the moment. Im really happy some of the time and especially when im with Rose. Infact just knowing Im going to meet her my mood lifts that very day. Heh I sound pathetic. God what life can bring huh..... I just wish sometimes that I didnt let her go sometimes then maybe we could be together still. but this is just weird I havnt felt like this for any one and its well just weird. I cant explain the feeling.

Any ways ill stop now. no one and I mean no one likes to hear me yap on or talk so ill stop.
I just fill like im getting pushed to the back and forgotton.

See you later.

Struck.

Sat, 19 Jul 2008 23:21:22 GMT

meh never mind the title....

Just havnt spoken on here for a few weeks now I beleave *cant be bothered to check* so thought Id update things.
Well Been seeing alot more of rosemary recently Which is good she makes me happy :) and I really do still like her.
Ive just got the problem that Im becoming really shy again. and drawing back into my little black hole of a room as my money drys up like a stagnent oasis in alaska. *ok wrong metaphore but meh* Im not just saying I like her like I every knows I say "I like that girl" its differnt, I feel more connected with her and have more in common with her then any one else I know. Theres one thing that jumps out in my memory of her when ever I think of her. Its some thing very special to me that we did and it wasnt any thing sexual. which makes it even more special in my eyes. I want to be happy but more then any thing I want her to be happy. But what my mind tells me and what i think is I want "us" to be happy. But the thing is she has a boyfriend now. Which sucks to be me :(
We went to the cinema together and we saw Jess on the way there. *waves* That woman was rose :P
We saw Wall.E but we wanted to see Hancock as its a much better looking film but we in the end decided Wall.E was the only choice as we had to be else where later on in the day and hancock was showing later then we expected.
I have no idea what is going through rose's mind and I dont know If she likes me much as I like her or if she even knows that I like her as much as I do.
We did go out for a time but I had to end it for reasons I shall not confer and I thought it was the only way to allow her to be happy again. And it worked she became happy started to out more and that made me happy. That I knew I did the right thing by sacrificeing something I liked a hell of alot for her to be happy.
well im hoping to see her on monday which would be good.

On another note my head has been semi ok this past week but still has its ups and down but all ok. the closer we get to winter again the better as I know in winter my mind comes back from summer vacation and I can begin getting healthy again.
If you get my meaning.

Any ways thats my little "off my chest" thing done.
Ill catch you all later my little weavels of doom.

A must see

Mon, 14 Jul 2008 10:18:54 GMT

http://youtube.com/watch?v=YBsWApdOdm8

I really want to see this. Looks funny as hell. Like when a man gets hit in the nuts with a ball... *rolls on the floor laughing*

Strange going on's

Tue, 08 Jul 2008 19:59:12 GMT

Well Went to the docs today. a few strange things happend.

they told me why I was feeling the way I was. that the chemicals in my brain are "fucked" and thats why my mood is screwed.
And that the drugs I was on where making me worse and suicidal.
but things are in motion now.
My head does feel strange at the moment and god I need things to do that isnt work or stress to keep me calm.

And they said Im now an "urgent Case" what ever that means.... but I have other problems to worry about as well now. which I need to see docters for "god bless docters" heh its weird I feel like I want to be a docter now. just so I can diagnose my self. :P but I more then ever want to be a scientist to find the cures for things that would be awesome to be able to cure Aids and HIV and things like that.
think how much money I could make creating something like that.

Well anoth of the money market.
Ive got yet another week off work which is great.

going to get a new game as well tomorrow for me and Dp to play Mike you might like this one its like galactic empires or what ever you call it. take over planets and build space platforms and stuff and battle ships. Should be great fun.

Well Hope to be able to hang out with you all soon.
Have fun people.

just did it and it was kinda right.

Tue, 08 Jul 2008 19:45:26 GMT

http://www.comclub.org/lj/fsquiz.php

Dashed.

Mon, 07 Jul 2008 10:49:29 GMT

Well here I come to ruin your day.
As of this very moment I am feeling rather poopie but thats to be expected when one is alone.
I havnt eaten much in the past few days i just cant seem to finish any meals I start kinda sucks as I really do like my food.

On a good note the world as we know it is coming to an end says most religions so what are we to do about it? riat in the street, cuase havoc for people, slay innocent people..... no all we need to do is wait for the entire planet to do that for us. they say all the worlds oil reserves will run out in 10 years.... Or so ive heard. what are the oil companys going to do then hmmmm.... Dont tell me its going to be just like Gundam and each contenant is going to create a giant solar tower into space..... doult it very much.

But Ive been tasked within my guild in AoC to have a front in the enemys lines for diplomacy and all that malarki. I mean what on earth is that all about? I cant win an argument and hell I cant even win an argument against my self...... Damn I suck at brain fights.

The keller was pritty good on friday. few games of pool, bit of dancing and strangly absolutly no pole dancing.... I stayed till about 2:30 then got the bus which is the lateist ive stayed there for a very long time. Most people where ignoring me though as they where busy with every one else. So the only friend I had left was Zoe So I decided I would give her attention for the night in return for her attention. so Wasnt too bad But nothing dodgy happend I know your minds.

For the past 2 nights and today being a monday. Ive been unable to sleep much. Its been taking me over 3 hours to get to sleep and i wake up too early as in 6-7 am. so thats only about 3 hours sleep anight so far.

Its also not very fair that I have to keep being reminded about my past mistakes all the time. and I just want to forget and move on but it seems something doesnt want me to do that. I dont beleave in god or any thing like that so there is no point in religious people trying to get me into there religion.

Well thats the end of my ranting and I hope it sucked out all the fun in your day :P opps I mean didnt...